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Would You Rather?

Today I played a little game on my porno tumblr – people sent me Would You Rather? questions, and I answered them. It was fun! Especially since I was working from a coffee shop and had to use my laptop to hide my hard-on. Here’s the result! Would you rather …

…spend the night in a leather sleep sack or a leather straightjacket? 

Straight jacket. I think they have a bigger tone of subjugation that resonates with me.

…not be allowed to wear underwear for a month … or have to wear the same pair of undies for a month (without washing obviously :P )

I’d rather be forbidden from underwear altogether. I think a great challenge for a boy is never having more than one layer of clothing between him and his Sir. :-p

Also I work out a lot and wearing just one pair would probably bost destroy them and be unhealthy.

…be locked in chastity for a full year never being allowed to cum or milked continuously to the point of painful dry orgasms daily for a full year?

Probably chastity for a year. I think I could deal with that, mostly. And frankly, who has the time for daily millings? I’m a busy boy. :-P

…be gagged or plugged?

Well on the one hand I’d say “why not both?” It does involve two separate holes, after all, offering twice the fun for half the price. Or whatever. But since I have to make a choice, I’d choose gagged. My ass doesn’t always cooperate.

…have your sir control your workout routine or control your diet?

Workout routine, though he’d have to know what he was doing and really be able to push me. I’m pretty devoted to getting fit and I work out pretty hard already. My nutrition is already under a pretty tight control.

…wear a puppy tail for a month or be in chastity for two?

chastity for two.

…be tied and tickled or tied and spanked?

well, i’m not ticklish, so spanked I guess.

…have blindfolded sex for a year or no hands(tied or mitted) sex for a year?

Yes. :-D If the Dom wants me to touch him or fight, then handless sex is going to be rough.

A fighter, eh? Would you rather lose all the time or would you like to win once in a while?

I’m not much of a fighter, really. Probably better to have said struggle. But even so, it’s not really fighting if you’re not trying to win. If you just try to lose every time, you’re just play acting. And that’s not as hot to me as having a scene with some stakes in it.

Literal stakes, or just metaphorical ones?

That depends on so many things. Maybe a cross between the two.

…be locked in a pillory or stretched on the rack? 

I’m partial to racks, myself. They strike me as putting a boy in an utterly helpless position. But they’re impractical sometimes, so when camping (i love camping), I’d choose pillory / stocks / flogging post.

…suffer E-stim for 4 hours on high level or ball crusher for a week?

oh damn now we’re getting somewhere! I would choose e-stim. I’ve never done either e-stim or ball crushing, but e-stim has always been more appealing.

…be tied and suspended in an old Gothic church surrounded by leathermen, or tied and suspended in an old warehouse surrounded by men in religious costume?

Both awesome settings! :) . I would choose the warehouse with religious Doms, because it feels more plausible a scene. Leathermen in a church is a scene that says the setting is changed somehow. Like The Abbey in LA that was once a church and now a club. But the warehouse scene could easily be religious domination retreated to a secluded location to do their evil deeds ;-)

…have a night of light bondage and amazing sex, or a night of heavy bondage and no sex – which makes you more happy/turned on?

In a Dom/sub environment, I choose Heavy bondage with no sex. Light bondage and good sex … that’s fine but it’s basically just sex with a little spice. Heavy Bondage and no sex (or at least no release for the boy) is truer subjugation.

… top your Dom or perform oral on a woman, but whichever you choose, they need to climax, hands free. ;)

well there we have a problem, because I’m a bit of a quick draw and so don’t well as a top. I suppose because I know I wouldn’t be able to please my Dom, I’d end up having to choose to perform on a woman even though it turns me off. Maybe if I close my eyes I can pretend I’m just rimming Sir…

… be bound and kept in isolation, or bound and put on display in a public situation?

Okay so clearly there’s a problem with this game … you all keep suggesting things to which the answer is both! ;-)

Isolation would allow me to explore sub-space, which I’ve never experienced. But I’m more turned on by the notion of being put on display, which will surprise people who know me or have followed y writing because while it excites me, humiliation play also turns my stomach. :-P

…be on display at the Crypt in your neck of the woods, or at a bigger event like the Folsom Street Fair?

Probably at the Crypt … something a little more private. :)

…be one sub being used by several tops, or one of several bottoms being used by one top?

I think I’d rather be in a group of subs. At least then there’s no risk of conflicting instructions (and thus punishments…).

Candles & Wax Redux

So after posting yesterday’s Favorites of candles and wax, I found a few more great shots courtesy the amazing Ruff.

Embracing My Shy Side

I want to do so much.

And aside from the occasional concern about safety and all that jazz, I don’t have a lot of hang-ups, sexually. My biggest problem is that I’m “shy” – which I’ve made mention of in passing before. Mainly, though, I’m shy socially. Not a lot of self confidence. I think I’m unpretty, not svelte, not the kind of guy gayboys spend time on, which is a silly thing to be concerned about since gayboys aren’t my type to begin with. But I was one of those kids that was picked last for kickball and generally not part of the crowd growing up, and something of that has always stuck with me.

In London a few days ago, the hubster wanted to go to a gay bar, and I basically freaked. The whole concept of gay bars intimidates me, and we were only at the freakin’ Admiral Duncan, which on a Tuesday night is a pretty low-key non-intimidating place. I don’t know what I get so worked up about, but until I’ve had a drink or two, I just can’t relax.

So I’m working on getting over it, because that’s stupid, really. I was chatting with a guy last night and said something about how there’s all these things I want to get into and try and yes I’d love to get tied up, flogged, caged or otherwise abused and sure it’ll happen some day but “there’s no rush.” His reply was “of course there’s a rush, life is limited.” Which I may or may not agree with but it made me think to myself there is no reason to put off what I know I want to do and try and be.

Actually, it’s not what I want, it’s what I am. I know I’m a kinkster, a sub, a boy, a servant, a plaything, and I’m never going to really become that until I can embrace it, try it, learn it, and just fucking relax.

Yes, I’m shy and reserved and quiet when it comes to social settings. I don’t reach out to men on recon or fetlife or anywhere, and I should. But this is only one part of me, because in business, I’m badass. When I’m in charge, I’m the intimidating one. When I need to be “on” and impressive, I’m there. So I just need to find ways to bridge that, to get over myself and my past, and understand who I am better.

Because if I don’t learn better who I am and embrace the things that make me nervous, I’ll never live up to my potential in either my vanilla or my kinky life.

Hi again, Dallas

I’m off to Dallas, TX again tomorrow through Friday. I end up in Dallas two or three times a year for work, but alas, have never found much there. Usually I travel with a colleague and we hang out, and since we share a car it’s hard to get away to “visit friends.” I used that excuse once, I’m not entirely sure he bought it, not that it matters. What’s nice aout this trip is that I get to go alone this time, which makes for a more relaxed trip on my schedule.

But the problem with Dallas, at least as far as I’ve found, is that I’ve never really found anything to do (or anyone, for that matter). Grindr is usually a bust, as is Recon. So I end up drinking in the hotel bar or crushing on the bell boy. But I’m changing hotels this time around so … who knows? But hey, if you’re in DFW and have some advice (or ideas …), shoot me an email!

I might not be able to get the same experience as the last time I traveled alone, but hey, maybe I’ll get some writing done.

A free weekend, what to do with it?

So I have a four day, three night weekend all to myself coming up. Whatever should I do with it? :-p

My Twisted Brain and the Apartment Next Door

So my next door apartment* is vacant now. One of the first things I thought of was how fun it would be to get a bunch of kinksters to go in on it and turn it into a big private playspace. Completely impractical and highly unlikely, but it would be fun. :)

* Incidentally – in case anyone is interested – it’s a two bedroom railroad with a living room in between them and a hall so do you don’t have to trudge through one person’s bedroom to get to the other. Carnegie Hill / Spanish Harlem area of the UES.

Bloody Tired

I am bloody tired. It’s been two weeks of little sleep, a lot of work, travel, and I still have a busy week ahead of me. When it gets like this I just don’t have the time or energy for porn, sex, or creative thought, so I’m going to ease back into it here.

Maybe it’s because I’m tired and cranky but I gotta say messages on Recon that jump to “Where you do live?” “I’m horny, come service me.” “I’m adding you, be online NOW.” are just really fucking annoying. I just expect more of a personality I guess, or at least an attempt at a legit conversation, not creepyDom. Anyway, I’m just tired and cranky, so I’m going to go take a shower, drink some water, relax. In the meantime, here are sexy pictures. Take it away, Hot Fuckers!

Click to engorge.

Interlude

Just got back from a business trip to Tennessee and today my brain simply won’t engage … too tired from many days of little or poor sleep. Headed out again tomorrow morning to visit friends in Raleigh and then a business trip in Tampa immediately after that … so posting will probably be light for a few days (since this blog is new and everyone’s at IML I doubt anyone will notice :) ). In the meantime I’ll tap out a summary of my trip … which aside from work duties included painful nipples, gagging on cock, kissing a boot in an elevator, rope, wax, and milking. Good times :)

The New Guy

Hi.

My name is Rook. I’m new here. I’ve long considered creating a blog to explore myself, and I finally got it all put together. I won’t waste a lot of time introducing myself, because I’ve done that on this page. If I didn’t answer something specific, ask me anything in the comments or at my little formspring thingy.

I don’t know what shape this blog will take. It’s really an outlet. I have a creative, fanciful mind and sometimes want to write short stories of fantasies. I have a big ol’ porn collection I can share – though I want to be more than that. I want to use this space to process what I think, what I feel, what I fear, what excites me, and what actually happens.So it’s gonna be a hodge podge. I’ve spent the last day getting it all together and now I’m left wondering, “what do I write now?”

No matter. It’ll come.

Feel free to say hi. Feel free to ask for a link, to send ideas. I’m usually easy to get a hold of. Fire away.

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