May2010

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Interlude

Just got back from a business trip to Tennessee and today my brain simply won’t engage … too tired from many days of little or poor sleep. Headed out again tomorrow morning to visit friends in Raleigh and then a business trip in Tampa immediately after that … so posting will probably be light for […]

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The boyfriend

I had a really good conversation with my better half this evening. I am officially free to do any goddamn perverse thing demanded of me), and free to submit as required.  The only catch is condoms, and if I am incapacitated, my Dom/Master/Sir may need to call/text my partner to say I’m okay.

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A Question for Myself

Physically, I can take pretty much anything. I can mentally block or accept pain (I think), or I can compartmentalize anything really weird, if it ever came up. But I think when it comes to submission, real submission, a conversation with a (really hot) Dom tonight made me wonder … Could I say, “Please punish […]

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My First Time

This is a real story from my experience. When I finally started to embrace this part of me, I had no idea what to do or how to go about learning the ropes. I created a new Recon profile, joined Fetlife, all that kind of thing. But it was slow going – and that’s mostly […]

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A Little Personal History: Chat Rooms & Self-Abuse

Eventually I convinced the parents to get Internet access, and soon enough I discovered porn. This was a way to see what men looked like, to learn what I wasn’t learning about sexuality. Perhaps not the most realistic environment to learn about sex in, but it did the job. Eventually I discovered Internet Relay Chat […]

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A Little Personal History: Learning to Masturbate

Have you ever had those kinds of moments where you think back through your life and realize that your affinity for Ken dolls, Wesley Crusher and NSYNC were all clear signs of being queer as a three dollar bill at age 7? Well, I have that same thing when it come to BDSM and kink. […]

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The New Guy

Hi. My name is Rook. I’m new here. I’ve long considered creating a blog to explore myself, and I finally got it all put together. I won’t waste a lot of time introducing myself, because I’ve done that on this page. If I didn’t answer something specific, ask me anything in the comments or at […]

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